I got a lot of SmSz,emails and even phone calls on India's independence day.Most of them were forwards and to be true i just read them once and didn't even think twice about them.I did put up "Happy independence day" as my tagline on orkut but even that wasn't my idea.I just did it because i promised somebody that i would.Now my account name in my laptop is "Saniya".Usually out of habit,i just lock my system instead of shutting it down.That day when i opened it and moved the cursor,on my screen something blinked like it always does,which i don't particularly notice always but that day it caught my attention somehow."Saniya Locked".It read and I smiled.I unlocked it and started working on my lappy when all of a sudden my mobile vibrated.I thought it would be one of those forwards again but what i read actually touched me.The message was from my father(who has recently learnt to SmS :D and i love reading his small cute one-liners).My mobile screen read as :
From : Papa
Azaadi.Mubarak.Ho.
He uses full stops instead of spaces,ok that was cute no doubt but the content and the timing surprised me!Saniya Locked .....Azzadi mubarak ho !Free was I ?That did made me smile for sometime but it made me think about freedom as well.What is freedom?Am i free?Or am i independent ?Is freedom about not having any responsibilities or is it about having the liberty to do what you really want?Am i doing what i really want?Do i want my freedom?Can i have it ?Will that make me happy?Am i not happy already ?May be i don't want my freedom?May be i want others to take my decisions?May be,I don't want my freedom.I want to be dependent !May be i just want to close my eyes,close my fists,hold myself tightly,sit in one corner and want somebody to just assure me that whatever is happening is best for me...
May be i am too greedy :(
From : Papa
Azaadi.Mubarak.Ho.
He uses full stops instead of spaces,ok that was cute no doubt but the content and the timing surprised me!Saniya Locked .....Azzadi mubarak ho !Free was I ?That did made me smile for sometime but it made me think about freedom as well.What is freedom?Am i free?Or am i independent ?Is freedom about not having any responsibilities or is it about having the liberty to do what you really want?Am i doing what i really want?Do i want my freedom?Can i have it ?Will that make me happy?Am i not happy already ?May be i don't want my freedom?May be i want others to take my decisions?May be,I don't want my freedom.I want to be dependent !May be i just want to close my eyes,close my fists,hold myself tightly,sit in one corner and want somebody to just assure me that whatever is happening is best for me...
May be i am too greedy :(
3 comments:
nah u r not greedy.u kno its so ironical dat most part of our life(esp d gals of our generation)is spent craving our future,trying to be independent,able to tk our own decisions n finally wen we get all dese we start feeling dat dere is sumthing missing.we quench 4 care n cosiness dat we njoy in our mom's lap.personally i feel so gud wen sumone(u kno who)says dont do dis or dat.but it happens rarely.acc to sum1 i m free,aazad.yaeah i m free but yes i do feel dat sumtimes my parents tk decisions 4 me.sumeone tells me to do wat he wishes.in dat sense i m also greedy n yes of course aazad.every1 of us is.
Good one once again -
Sometimes we want to be assured of everything as u said..."somebody to just assure me that whatever is happening is best for me"
Thats really an awesome feeling.. but what I experience is that start becoming a bottle neck and thats when we start thinking.... Why I'm always told to do.. why things don't happen my way.. why I can't decide and do....whatever i want or like.....
To sum up - what I have experienced is that we think... We should be be free from taking decisions only times when we don't want to...and we should take decisions whenever we want.... thats LIFE......
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